Do You Believe In Santa Claus?
A fictional story about professional football and a betrayal of faith.
2:05 AM Feb 4th, 2018
Tom spent most of the small hours of the night pacing nervously in his hotel suite, his feet and hands sweating as he thought about the phone call.
His time was up.
It wasn’t all his fault anyway, he thought. After all it really could have been anyone, he just happened to come along at the right place and right time. He was just following orders. He had no time for his periphery vision to be wasted for the outside world.
They had told him what to do. They always did. Whether it was the old man who looked fake with his combed over silver hair and plush ties, or the younger man who looked older than any of them and smelled of bad cigars and expensive scotch.
“Come to bed,” whispered an unseen angelic figure from the opaque shadow.
“In a minute, I gotta’ get my head right” he answered with just enough emphasis to not be questioned.
His mind hammered and his stomach seemed empty and sick at the same time.
He walked out into the hallway, the lights out save for some iridescent blue lighting coming from the security lights.
For the first time in over 18 years, Tom wondered who he would be.
Here he was, the poster boy on the video game covers. The one that married the Super Model. The one that everyone (or at least a large section of the general population) wanted to be.
He was the best, the most decorated ever, and he just wanted one more ring, just one more. It’s all that he ever really wanted anymore. The only thing that didn’t seem guaranteed. The only thing that was up for grabs.
But he was wrong, and now he had to choose his next steps carefully.
Should he continue to play their game? Or should he chart his own path and expose it
all?
Why did he care?
Tom wasn’t one to question his own success until now. After all, he knew how hard he worked, how much he studied the game. He put hours after hours, listening to coaches, reviewing the film. It consumed him. At times it was ALL he thought about.
Be the best, work the hardest, don’t doubt your own ability. Believe in yourself. Believe in the impossible.
Yet that Saturday night, on the eve the biggest sports event in the world, in which he would star, Tom finally asked himself whether he was acting the part of the hero rather than being it.
The League had made him a millionaire ten times over. He was in so many ways indebted to it.
“3 Out Slot, Ghost Tracer, 73 on set, Tom, watch the blitz, they love to blitz this down, if so look to your Hot.”
It happened just like that.
Not all, but most.
Tom had always thought this was the brilliance of his coach, the ability to predict blitzes and coverages, based on little more than scouting and intuition. Perhaps some analytics.
“Tom, I think they’ll be in cover 3 here, you should have Gronk on the cross.”
“Hey, keep your tail in to block, might be a zone blitz.”
But that was all before the phone call…
Why did he care?
Tom wasn’t one to question his own success until now. After all, he knew how hard he worked, how much he studied the game. He put hours after hours, listening to coaches, reviewing the film. It consumed him. At times it was ALL he thought about.
Be the best, work the hardest, don’t doubt your own ability. Believe in yourself. Believe in the impossible.
Yet that Saturday night, on the eve the biggest sports event in the world, in which he would star, Tom finally asked himself whether he was acting the part of the hero rather than being it.
The League had made him a millionaire ten times over. He was in so many ways indebted to it.
“3 Out Slot, Ghost Tracer, 73 on set, Tom, watch the blitz, they love to blitz this down, if so look to your Hot.”
It happened just like that.
Not all, but most.
Tom had always thought this was the brilliance of his coach, the ability to predict blitzes and coverages, based on little more than scouting and intuition. Perhaps some analytics.
“Tom, I think they’ll be in cover 3 here, you should have Gronk on the cross.”
“Hey, keep your tail in to block, might be a zone blitz.”
But that was all before the phone call…
6:18 PM Feb 3rd, 2018
It was snowing outside in Minnesota with a kind of
unsympathetic cold, and it was generally as Minnesotan as a winter day could
get. Tom was engrossed with his tablet studying
film, his soul consumed with the thought of becoming the best at EVERYTHING, to
put more on his mantle than anyone before him or would again. He felt he was close.
He wasn’t startled so much as annoyed, but when the caller ID read that the cigar man was calling he picked up. He would always pick up for him.
“Tom…” The voice came but without the steely resolve and confidence it was known for, as though it was searching for its own identity.
“Tom, I’m sorry. We had a good run, but it’s over.”
“Sorry what?”
“It’s over Tom, we can’t do it anymore, it’s too risky, and you are going to have to take the hit.”
“Bill what the fuck are you talking about”
He wasn’t startled so much as annoyed, but when the caller ID read that the cigar man was calling he picked up. He would always pick up for him.
“Tom…” The voice came but without the steely resolve and confidence it was known for, as though it was searching for its own identity.
“Tom, I’m sorry. We had a good run, but it’s over.”
“Sorry what?”
“It’s over Tom, we can’t do it anymore, it’s too risky, and you are going to have to take the hit.”
“Bill what the fuck are you talking about”
“Tom, it’s always been this way, we never tell you guys
anything until we think you’re ready, and, well, you might not be ready, but we
have to move now. There’s just too much
money invested elsewhere. We had our
run, but it’s over. You’re going to have
to take the hit.”
Tom attempted to speak but he had no words yet. He felt as though someone was joking with
him. Putting him on as a prank.
“Tom, I…I’m sorry. We had a great run. But it’s over. In the third quarter, they’re going to blitz, we will call the ghost right, but you are going to take a big hit, and I just want you to be ready, because it’s the last one you get to take. After this, you may decide to announce, maybe you’ll coach, but no one wants to see you or I on the field anymore. Our story is done.”
“Bill, what…”
“Tom, I…I’m sorry. We had a great run. But it’s over. In the third quarter, they’re going to blitz, we will call the ghost right, but you are going to take a big hit, and I just want you to be ready, because it’s the last one you get to take. After this, you may decide to announce, maybe you’ll coach, but no one wants to see you or I on the field anymore. Our story is done.”
“Bill, what…”
“Don’t worry, you’ll get paid more than you can
imagine. And you’ll still have a hero’s
welcome, and you’ll get your ring, but this is going to be it. Tom, it’s not real. The game… It’s an illusion with subtle
choreography. We can’t let the kids
know, we can’t let those dumb asses in the south and in the ghettos, know, but
it’s finally time you did. Our sport,
what started as a game, became a business, and we can’t stop it anymore. We stand to gain billions tomorrow. Do you understand? Billions.”
Tom felt his stomach grow tighter. A knot that wasn’t there suddenly ten minutes ago, seemed to have just sprouted and now felt like it was siphoning the flow of blood to the rest of his body.
“It wasn’t always this way, but once television came, and the crowds were selling out, what was everyone supposed to do? It all started with Otto Graham in the 50’s. Yes, all the way back then. You see the game until that point was boring. The running game was everything to a football game, and it resembled more of a rugby style game that was violent, athletically strenuous, but boring to watch….”
Tom could feel his heart jumping around in his chest like a psychopath against a padded wall. He could barely listen. He could barely think.
“Wait, please stop. Is this some kind of psycho-analytic motivational technique? If it’s rigged, someone else would have let it slip, there’s no way that many coaches and players could know. It’s impossible!” Tom shouted exasperatedly.
“We don’t tell most of you. Just the legends. Just the ones that deserve it. The ones that have given the game and us so much that we will never ever be able to repay you with all the money in the world. Besides, it’s so much better if you don’t know what’s going on. You play so much harder. You nearly kill each other for the sake of the game.
Paul Brown was the first to do it with Otto Graham in Cleveland. Brown could see that depending on spotting the right defense, the accuracy and beauty of Otto’s throws they were not only nearly unstoppable, but incredibly fun to watch the ball in the right spot more times than not. People loved to watch his throws come down with those majestic spirals, land deftly in someone’s hands running to the end-zone. Otto would walk up, see what the defense did and then adjusted. He did it so well that he won 7 championships and appeared in several more. Little did Otto know that he was a pawn in Paul’s incredible new game.
It started with just a script. Simple stuff, really. Paul and the other coaches would script out the plays for the game. Not more than maybe 10, then let their players choose what to do during the game. As the game progressed, they would alert their players to specific designs and needs of the game. They devised a simple system of signaling to the other coaches that they needed to switch play designs. Sometimes it didn’t work. The players didn’t realize it was going on because, well, they were never trained to think that way. They simply thought their respective coaches only had their players in mind. It never occurred to them that they would work together.
The start was simple. They simply would use small non-verbal signals. They would have “plants” in the stands to observe via binoculars and give the information down. Of course, mistakes happen, and you couldn’t very well control everything, but this allowed for dramatic comebacks and seemingly insurmountable leads to fall. The goal was simple, to give the fans something exciting to watch. Now it’s so much easier with the technology. We simply tell the other coaches what we’re gonna run, then they tell us what defense they think will produce an interesting play for whichever side we want to have something happen. We tell you where to look, where the strengths or weaknesses are maybe. And the 2-minute drills? They’re always scripted. We know what offense to run, because we know what defense they’ll be running, and we train you for it. That’s why we were put in a big hole against Atlanta last year, and why it was so easy to come back.
Because that’s how it was supposed to go.
People love comeback stories. Sure, sometimes they love pure dominance, but it’s far more thrilling for a back and forth. We like to root not only for champions, but the underdog champions. The ones that come back from a War like Otto did after World War II. Johnny Unitas, who was a ninth-round pick that got cut by Pittsburgh, would become the face of football for the late 50’s and early sixties. Joe Montana a third-round pick, originally from a small coal mining town. Kurt Warner was a grocery clerk. In fact, it was going to be Kurt who we all thought would be the next greatest story, but then 9/11 happened and everyone just wanted to see the red white and blue win as soon as possible. Baseball fucked it up when the Yankees lost to the Diamondbacks. Sure, they tried, but it’s so much harder to hit baseballs than it is to throw and catch a football. Shit happens.”
Tom hung up the phone.
It was all fake? His life was a lie built on the entertainment of millions and not of his own work?
The trophies and rings, his awards and stature seemed hollow now. His arduous work seemed to be to be worthless. Tom realized his shirt had now soaked through with sweat and he felt an overwhelming need to wash his face. He rushed to bathroom, put his face to the faucet and attempted to scrub away the avalanche of doubt cascading through his mind.
The phone rang again…
1:15 AM Feb. 4th, 2018
Tom felt his stomach grow tighter. A knot that wasn’t there suddenly ten minutes ago, seemed to have just sprouted and now felt like it was siphoning the flow of blood to the rest of his body.
“It wasn’t always this way, but once television came, and the crowds were selling out, what was everyone supposed to do? It all started with Otto Graham in the 50’s. Yes, all the way back then. You see the game until that point was boring. The running game was everything to a football game, and it resembled more of a rugby style game that was violent, athletically strenuous, but boring to watch….”
Tom could feel his heart jumping around in his chest like a psychopath against a padded wall. He could barely listen. He could barely think.
“Wait, please stop. Is this some kind of psycho-analytic motivational technique? If it’s rigged, someone else would have let it slip, there’s no way that many coaches and players could know. It’s impossible!” Tom shouted exasperatedly.
“We don’t tell most of you. Just the legends. Just the ones that deserve it. The ones that have given the game and us so much that we will never ever be able to repay you with all the money in the world. Besides, it’s so much better if you don’t know what’s going on. You play so much harder. You nearly kill each other for the sake of the game.
Paul Brown was the first to do it with Otto Graham in Cleveland. Brown could see that depending on spotting the right defense, the accuracy and beauty of Otto’s throws they were not only nearly unstoppable, but incredibly fun to watch the ball in the right spot more times than not. People loved to watch his throws come down with those majestic spirals, land deftly in someone’s hands running to the end-zone. Otto would walk up, see what the defense did and then adjusted. He did it so well that he won 7 championships and appeared in several more. Little did Otto know that he was a pawn in Paul’s incredible new game.
It started with just a script. Simple stuff, really. Paul and the other coaches would script out the plays for the game. Not more than maybe 10, then let their players choose what to do during the game. As the game progressed, they would alert their players to specific designs and needs of the game. They devised a simple system of signaling to the other coaches that they needed to switch play designs. Sometimes it didn’t work. The players didn’t realize it was going on because, well, they were never trained to think that way. They simply thought their respective coaches only had their players in mind. It never occurred to them that they would work together.
The start was simple. They simply would use small non-verbal signals. They would have “plants” in the stands to observe via binoculars and give the information down. Of course, mistakes happen, and you couldn’t very well control everything, but this allowed for dramatic comebacks and seemingly insurmountable leads to fall. The goal was simple, to give the fans something exciting to watch. Now it’s so much easier with the technology. We simply tell the other coaches what we’re gonna run, then they tell us what defense they think will produce an interesting play for whichever side we want to have something happen. We tell you where to look, where the strengths or weaknesses are maybe. And the 2-minute drills? They’re always scripted. We know what offense to run, because we know what defense they’ll be running, and we train you for it. That’s why we were put in a big hole against Atlanta last year, and why it was so easy to come back.
Because that’s how it was supposed to go.
People love comeback stories. Sure, sometimes they love pure dominance, but it’s far more thrilling for a back and forth. We like to root not only for champions, but the underdog champions. The ones that come back from a War like Otto did after World War II. Johnny Unitas, who was a ninth-round pick that got cut by Pittsburgh, would become the face of football for the late 50’s and early sixties. Joe Montana a third-round pick, originally from a small coal mining town. Kurt Warner was a grocery clerk. In fact, it was going to be Kurt who we all thought would be the next greatest story, but then 9/11 happened and everyone just wanted to see the red white and blue win as soon as possible. Baseball fucked it up when the Yankees lost to the Diamondbacks. Sure, they tried, but it’s so much harder to hit baseballs than it is to throw and catch a football. Shit happens.”
Tom hung up the phone.
It was all fake? His life was a lie built on the entertainment of millions and not of his own work?
The trophies and rings, his awards and stature seemed hollow now. His arduous work seemed to be to be worthless. Tom realized his shirt had now soaked through with sweat and he felt an overwhelming need to wash his face. He rushed to bathroom, put his face to the faucet and attempted to scrub away the avalanche of doubt cascading through his mind.
The phone rang again…
1:15 AM Feb. 4th, 2018
The night was slipping away with the icy wind. Tom couldn’t feel the cold as much as he
could sense it. It was a barren and desolate
night lacking any hint of warmth in the atmosphere. He was lost in the moment, unable to move and
numb from the reality that was hitting him in the face.
He was a fraud. A rich and wealthy fraud, but a fraud nonetheless. How could he have been so blind? He just wanted to be liked, he wanted the glory of his Idol. The rings and the recognition. He knew he wasn’t the strongest or the fastest, but he thought he figured out the game. That he understood it’s inner workings and could now decimate the opponent through his mind and preparation. To find out that it was designed for him to win; that he was destined to be great through the work of people above him made him feel as though he had earned nothing.
6:35 PM Feb. 3rd, 2018
“It’s about the story, Tom, it’s always about the story. We’ve been telling ours for almost twenty years. It’s amazing how people only see what they want to see. They wanted to see you win, the underdog from Michigan, a sixth round back up with gutty long drives. The ball you threw seemed so beautiful, and obviously you looked the part. Hell, obviously you still look the part! We took you up and down and I’m sorry for that play against Kansas City. We knew you were going to get hit a lot that game, but we never expected him to hit you low.
But that’s just part of business, you know? You picked yourself back up and the next year we made sure you came in with that bang in Buffalo. So, it works out. It’s not like you haven’t been rewarded for what you’ve done.
But it’s no longer up to us, it’s up the creators now and they say it’s time for some new blood. Maybe Wentz, maybe Goff, maybe even DeShaun if he can come back and play. The comeback kids are so easy to root for, so easy to believe in.
If Tebow could have thrown better, he’d probably already have a few titles, but the kid just threw an ugly looking ball. It would never translate.
Anyway, the play is in the third, you’ll go reach for your knee and that’s it. From there we can discuss what your retirement options can be. Just listen for Josh to say “Santa” over the radio.
Again Tom, I’m sorry, but we’ll talk more later.”
8:30 PM Feb. 4th, 2018He was a fraud. A rich and wealthy fraud, but a fraud nonetheless. How could he have been so blind? He just wanted to be liked, he wanted the glory of his Idol. The rings and the recognition. He knew he wasn’t the strongest or the fastest, but he thought he figured out the game. That he understood it’s inner workings and could now decimate the opponent through his mind and preparation. To find out that it was designed for him to win; that he was destined to be great through the work of people above him made him feel as though he had earned nothing.
6:35 PM Feb. 3rd, 2018
“It’s about the story, Tom, it’s always about the story. We’ve been telling ours for almost twenty years. It’s amazing how people only see what they want to see. They wanted to see you win, the underdog from Michigan, a sixth round back up with gutty long drives. The ball you threw seemed so beautiful, and obviously you looked the part. Hell, obviously you still look the part! We took you up and down and I’m sorry for that play against Kansas City. We knew you were going to get hit a lot that game, but we never expected him to hit you low.
But that’s just part of business, you know? You picked yourself back up and the next year we made sure you came in with that bang in Buffalo. So, it works out. It’s not like you haven’t been rewarded for what you’ve done.
But it’s no longer up to us, it’s up the creators now and they say it’s time for some new blood. Maybe Wentz, maybe Goff, maybe even DeShaun if he can come back and play. The comeback kids are so easy to root for, so easy to believe in.
If Tebow could have thrown better, he’d probably already have a few titles, but the kid just threw an ugly looking ball. It would never translate.
Anyway, the play is in the third, you’ll go reach for your knee and that’s it. From there we can discuss what your retirement options can be. Just listen for Josh to say “Santa” over the radio.
Again Tom, I’m sorry, but we’ll talk more later.”
Tom felt no pain, and walked into the blue injury tent, where somehow the old man had made his way in.
“Great show, great show.”
He could look at the man’s hands, looking at the rings.
“Can’t believe I got you those...” murmured Tom.
The old man winked. “Oh, my dear son, did you think you were a good boy all these years? That you earned the presents under your tree? You did well, but not any better than any of the other boys. You see, Santa isn’t real, just their fathers, and luckily for you, you simply had the best father. I’d spoil you more, but it’s time to get out of the house so to speak. It’s time for you to grow up. We still need you Tom, but now instead of executing our game, you need to take the next step. To be where I am, to make me truly proud, you need design your own game. Bill will help you if you like. He’s been great at doing it since his days with the Giants. But now it’s time to shut the door on your imagination and tell you the truth about Santa Claus.”
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