Thursday, March 29, 2018

On The Verge Of Taking the Next Step...Again

Penn State's history in Men's basketball is well documented.  A program that at times has seen some success, has had some terrific young men represent the program, but a program that has seemingly never been able to get over the hump.  Always seemingly 2 or 3 players away from becoming a true contender on the national scene.

I believe that their time as a mid level program is coming to a close and that we are about to ascend to the point where they will begin to contend and win time in and time out against other top flight programs across the Country.

I believe that Patrick Chambers has established a culture that he can replicate and win with.  His players focused on teamwork, effort, and sacrifice to create a winning culture.

When I watch Penn State basketball these days, I am struck by the athleticism and skill that is on the floor most nights.  Tony Carr is a legitimate NBA prospect right now, and if he develops, could even be a top 10 pick down the road.  Lamar Stevens, Mike Watkins, and Josh Reaves have great athleticism and size to defend multiple positions as well as provide impact around the rim.  Wheeler comes off the bench and creates havoc defensively and provides ball handling while giving Carr a breather.

But the two people who have put us over the top have been Shep Garner and Julian Moore.  Their roles are seemingly minor, but to me, when those two play well, the rest of the team's energy seems to sky rocket.

In the game against Mississippi State, Shep's 3-point barrage deflated the opposition and seemed to keep his teammates engaged in such a way to maintain everyone's focus and get the team's best.  During a game against Ohio State at home, Julian Moore came in to relieve the highly regarded Watkins and during one possession blocked two shots.  The crowd roared with approval and the atmosphere turned electric.

Basketball can easily become a sport about the few, about individuals, and less about the team.  Certainly individual talent can shine brightly on this stage.  But the best teams always seem to have players that excel even with limited rolls.  Penn State has shown a willingness to accept those roles and play them as well as they possibly can.

If these Nittany Lions come out against Utah tonight and play as well as they have for the past two months, I feel pretty confident in saying, not only that they'll win, but there is a strong chance that even without Tony Carr, the habits they've built and continue to build will help turn them into a NCAA tournament team come next year.

This Penn State team has been fun to watch for their determination, for their skill and athleticism, but most of all for how they appear to be a true team.  One that relies on themselves as well as others.  Tonight, win or lose, Penn State fans should feel good about how those kids have played the game and how the coaches have grown the program and culture.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

"Tearing At the Seams" by Nathaniel Rateliff & The Nightsweats.

Nathanniel Rateliff sounds old.   He sounds like he was teleported from a time where Creedence Clearwater, Van Morrison, and the soulful sounds of rhythm and blues took control of the airwaves.

Coming off viral national hits like I Need Never Get Old and S.O.B.  Rateliff's commercial expectations are a little bit more raised and in this album he mostly delivers a sound that is both recognizable in its roots as well as giving his own distinct flair.  Sometimes his voice becomes a bit muffled or hidden by the raucous horns, but never to the point that you can't enjoy, musically, the sound of the record.

If you're expecting a faster rock record and more of the same from their 2016 self titled album's hits you may be a bit disappointed.  Rateliff instead takes a measured approach to tell his blues filled stories.  That's not to say the tracks lack passion or that there aren't some tracks that carry some crossover pop weight, just that nothing works up to frenetic pace that his last two big hits had.

Overall I found the album enjoyable, but only three tracks really jumped out, with everything else being solid.


1. - Shoe Boot

The album opens with a slow stroll, with the sound of the keyboard, the horns as Rateliff creates a scene of open confidence if a bit uncertain as to where that confidence may lead.  While it's not big on rhymes and words, it does showcase the heart and soul musically of what the album is.  It gives the feel of an almost rebel seduction.

Said you can't find no water
Said you can't find your feet
Maybe it's turned the corner
Or maybe it's not for me

If you had a lover,
Would you bring them back to me?
I can't find you honey
But I want you to dance with me

Meet me by the corner, I know a place to go
Or maybe we'll love each other
Or maybe I don't know

Meet me by the corner, I know a place to go
Or maybe we'll love each other
Or maybe I don't know


2. - Be There


The second track opens with the banging of drums and chords that make you feel good and kind of want to clap and sing along.  Makes for a solid "Car Song" to drive to and seems destined to be used in a movie starring George Clooney

You start looking mean
Need something to ruin
Carved out your name
Not enough for you

I remember when
There was nothing to take your mind off it
I know all the ways
To act like a fool
I needed you

In other words, other ways
I want you to be there for me
In other words, other ways
I want you to be there for me

You think that you can
I take up so much room
It's the best I can bend
To try to make some space for two

It spins around us in
A direction to come unwind
While I needed you
It was never a choice of mine


In other words, other ways
I want you to be there for me
In other words, other ways
I want you to be there for me

Ain't it hard enough for me to ask
Well, it takes all of me

In other words, in other ways
I want you to be there for me
In other words, other ways
I want you to be there for me
In other words, in other ways
I want you to be there for me

3. - A Little Honey


A smooth song that seems on some level easy to get lost in.  It touches on the blues and loneliness being without that touch of sweetness.  Easy to listen to, simple and sweet.

I need you baby
More than you'll ever, ever know
What keeps you waiting?
Let's take our time just moving slow

I'm so lonely, feeling heavy love
You're just so far from where I want you now


Come on now, baby
You speak so soft and low
Come on now, baby
You think that I don't know
I need some honey
Come on now, baby

What if I told you
That there's a fight on every corner
They'll keep you wavering
Until you've reached some modern low
It's not just lazy
There's just some things you're never told


It can't be this heavy love
We'll have to wear our fears so everyone
Can see it too

Come on now, baby
You speak so soft and low
Come on now, baby
You think that I don't know
I need some honey
Come on now, baby

4. - Say It Louder


This is the point where I had difficulty sticking with the album, as this track felt to slow for me from the last one.  It's not a bad song, mind you.  Simple song that would go fine to dance to in the moonlight or dance to at your local bar when it's closing down.

One of these days, I'm gonna take mine back
I fell forever just to watch the slack
All of the days of working in the sun
My hands remind me of every hole I dug

I said, hey, I'm all cried out
Hey, I'm all tired out
You'll climb out
When you're finding your own way

I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
They say sometimes
What you need is exactly what you fear

One of these days, I'll take it on my way
One of these nights, I'll leave it somewhere babe
Talk of days and night and what you want
You say forever, then it's way too long

I said hey, hey baby
The night's turned to dawn and we're standing
In the shadows baby
Where we turn to face the sun

I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear

I said, hey, I'm all cried out
Hey, I'm all tired out
And you'll climb out
When you're finding your way

I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
I'll say it louder, say it clear
They say sometimes
What you need is exactly what you fear


5. - Hey Mama (State Pick)


A slower track, but one that certainly resonates with me in terms of subject matter.  In this track and story, a young man comes home complaining of the weight of the world.  His mom on the other hand, while not saying that his plight isn't real, tells him that there is still a long way to go, that he still hasn't lived or run long enough to feel the positive things in life.  That those things will come as he continues to push through his plight.

Hey mama, it's me
Said you better wait child
Said you've been a long time running

Hey mama, answer me
Baby boy you better sit down
Can't listen when the sun's out
My only son this will be so hard to hear


C'mon mama what do you mean
I know you've been knocked down
I know it ain't all been easy
Nothing ever good really is

Why you gotta wait so long
Why you gotta wait so long

But she said son
Let me reason with you
You think you carry such a weight
I know I never beat you boy
Better start acting like
This here's a race

You ain't gone far enough to say
At least I tried

You ain't worked hard enough to say
Well I've done mine

You ain't run far enough to say
My legs have failed

You ain't gone far enough
You ain't worked hard enough
You ain't run far enough to say
It ain't gonna get any better



You picked a bad time
You picked a bad time to listen to me
You picked a bad time
You picked a bad time to listen to me
You picked a bad time
You picked a bad time to listen to me
You picked a bad time
You picked a bad time to listen to me

You ain't gone far enough to say
At least I tried

You ain't worked hard enough to say
Well I've done mine

You ain't run far enough to say
My legs have failed

You ain't gone far enough
You ain't worked hard enough
You ain't run far enough to say
It ain't gonna get any better


6. - Babe I Know

If you are going to make a blues record, then this is one of the songs that needs to be on it.  It gives the feeling of almost a lonely Winter of Christmas sound.  This regret that seems to haunt him but unable to actually give voice to it.

Babe I know it swirls around me
Like the sun shines on the coast
Like a weathered, torn, once sturdy barn
I used to give you shelter and warmth

It's clear, I can see
The dry grass at my feet
As we wait to go, if you don't come home I'll just say
"Baby I know"

Babe I know
Baby I know
The course has drifted here
As we swim to land, mouths full of the sand, just say
"Baby I know"

I'm all tired and my throat's so dry
I feel I'm barely holding on
I'm gonna sit around here with this abscessed fear and say
"Baby I know"

Now there's something that I want that I'll never be
Burned out full of love
Now sometimes I lay here half awake
And say, "baby I know"
Now sometimes I lay here half awake
And say, "baby I know"


7. - Intro

 A sorely needed pick me up to the album, this "Intro" is an energetic spring to jolt the album back to life.

Well we got the whole night left to lose and
There's nothing I'd rather doing
Baby just to be so close to you

Tell me that you want me
Tell me that you need me
Tell me that you love me
Tell me that there's nothing around here baby
This part of town to get crazy
Acting the fool and being lazy


8. - Coolin' Out (State Pick)
 
A fun song that speaks to a sense of being carefree and seems to break away from the rigidity and stress that can exist in the world.  A fun up and down bass line, the female background singers and keyboards really help accentuate a song that really puts the album back into a bit of an upbeat mood.

I've been coolin' out, baby
Now I might be fool enough, maybe
And now I wanna hear you say it
Say that love ain't enough to carry
Now it might be that I'm bein' swayed in a lie

Are you standing in the shadows or standing in the waves?
The heat's got you dizzy and you're red in the face
Warm summer breeze, but it's cold at my place
I feel the rhythm and you're on the chase

I said, baby, come on
We'll be dancin' and havin' fun
Tell your mama that you're leavin' home
And your friends are gonna come along

And I've been coolin' out, baby
And I hope to hear you say it
Baby, it's not broke, not mendin'
And you can't always catch it, baby

Line me a hook, sing me a song
Find me crooked, broken and wrong
I found myself in the way



I said, baby, come on
We'll be dancin' and havin' fun
Tell your mama that you're leavin' home
And your friends are gonna come along
We'll be coolin' and carryin' on

I've been coolin' out, baby...


9. - Baby I Lost My Way, (But I'm Going Home)



If I might, this song can't help but musically remind me of "Love Potion No. 9" as well as a generic spy thriller.  This song also, in my view, suffers a bit from the music overpowering Rateliff's voice so profoundly.  It's OK, but I feel like it's not as essential to the album as some as the other tracks.

Now the weight I know
And the weight I've seen
You look tired and worn
You were almost beat
Now the weight I found
Woah, baby I lost my way but I'm going home

I've been stumbling down the mountain
I've been stumbling by the sea
I've been stumbling in the dust
I can't taste it on my teeth
But the weight I know, baby I lost my way but I'm going home

Been pushing through a crowd on an empty street
Everything that you worked for but still can't see
Baby take it from someone who knows, I'm trying hard just to get back home
Only thing, honey, that I need is your arms around me

Now the love I found, how it weighs on me
Are you tired and worn or maybe I can't see?
Baby don't let go
Oh, baby I lost my way but I'm going home


10. - You Worry Me (State Pick)

A haunting electric guitar smacks the scene to get your attention as well as a quick but measured pace.  As Rateliff then comes in to tell the story of attempting to help a friend and loved one so that they can become happy.  That while he may exist in a positive place, he isn't immune to seeing someone he cares about struggling.  It fills an emotional depth of caring for someone that is struggling in such a simple but humanizing way, all the while giving a confidence that the problems can be over come. 

I'm alright today
You gonna find a way to cross and you gonna get there

And I'm on fire today
Ain't no water here to calm or even put me out

I'll find a better way
Am I crazy or the wind is gonna blow me down?

I'm gonna leave it all out there to dry
I'm gonna leave it all out there
I'm gonna leave it all out there to dry up
I'm gonna leave it all out there
You seem tired today
Were you up all night afraid of what the future might bring?

I feel fine today
I had dreams of you in places I've not seen before

You get so carried away
Like lovers new to bodies first to touch you here

This ain't a getaway
You build walls around your heart to try to lock it in

I'm gonna leave it all out there to dry
I'm gonna leave it all out there
I'm gonna leave it all out there to dry up
I'm gonna leave it all out there
And upon the wind it's carried
Over the cities and the plains
You got time you're on the mend babe
And everybody wants the same
Everybody wants the same thing


I'm gonna leave it all out there to dry
I'm gonna leave it all out there
I'm gonna leave it all out there to dry up
I'm gonna leave it all out there
But you worry me
You worry me
...

11. - Still Out There Running


A love song that seems to ask if their own time for love has ended and that it's time for one great relationship to go the way as others have.  Slow and steady, the song still seems to have touches of hope within it.  That at the end maybe it doesn't have to be the way it seems.

Yeah baby, we could set the whole thing on fire
I was the king of standing alone
Looking back to see how far you've flown
I ain't grown and I ain't changed at all

Yeah honey, you could say I'm afraid
Afraid my voice don't even sound the same
There's some pitch I can't even hear at all
Push my voice now to hear it stall
I'm choking on every word

Yeah maybe, we could find a place to stretch our wings
Rest upon cliffs overlooking scenes
Scenes we don't write and we don't fall between
Ah, we're just falling again

Wake me up, see the fire has fully surrounded us
Hey I know, as I'm coughing up all the ashes
Of the friends and the love I used to know
It's still out there running

Yeah baby, we could set the whole thing ablaze
Watch the crowd's eyes open amazed
They're just standing in the smoke of the dead
Hear them whispering their stories, man
It'll never change the time they're gone


Hey honey, you think that I'm a fool to be
So deep in it now that I can't see
I just wait for you to call my name
Ain't it always been the same?
We just keep passing on the wrong time

Yeah maybe, maybe we'll go to the other side of town
Remember that old house, baby we ran down
The nights on the floor were so perfect then
Remember when the sun was coming up that red
And the fire in our bed

Yeah baby, we could set the whole thing on fire
I was the king of standing alone
Looking back to see how far you've flown
I ain't grown and I ain't changed at all
Looking down to see how far you've fallen

Wake me up, see the fire has fully surrounded us
Hey, I know as I'm choking upon the ashes
Of the friends and the love I used to know
I used to know back then

 

12. - Tearing At The Seams

This song, being the Title Track, gives some additional weight to this 5 minute expression of sound.  While it could potentially be a political protest song, I choose to interpret it more as though he's generally tired of the lies of the world.  The idea that the world is tearing itself apart at the seams fighting each other.  But in the end he feels that his cause is just and that he's not going to stop standing up for it.

Well, did you think that I would break
Underneath the pressure in here?

Now the heart if not to feel
Is a wandering waste in the driest land
Now from these heights of this hills
There's a funny thing that no one else can see

There's a liar, a liar on the stage
With a young child's eyes
And it happens all wrong and only
Half of it's seen from here

Where has all the time gone?
In separate ways it runs long
A hundred miles built upon us
It's tearing at the seams of all that's been
Tearing at the seams of all that's been

Wait, is this a game
Or am I walking into a snare?
Now these lies will spread
Until we're choking on the innocent

They have half of us tied and
Half of us in chains
We're all covering our eyes and
Covering our mouths just the same


Where has the time gone?
In separate ways it runs long
A hundred miles built upon us
It's tearing at the seams of all that's been
Tearing at the seams of all that's been
It's tearing at the seams of all that's been

They're gonna have to drag us away

13. - I'll Be Damned



This to me is a song about being single and that while he pretends to be over the past, he still holds this grudge, damning himself to feeling forever lonely.

We were staying home to get away
Trying to loose the hold but it's still too late
Don't sigh on me, don't size me up at all

We were backing off with a bellyache
You can sit in a hole, you can save your belief
I'm in awe, I'm forgetting everything

Well don't corner me, you've got nerve to be
Got dirt on you for feeling such a foolish thing

See it's good to be out and alone in the world
Cause nobody cares, and they never did anyways

You can pack that notion any day
You can block my face, you can bury me
I'm one and all
I'm wide on every side

We were spending in, we were on a date
You were giving me hell, or so you think
I'm barreling in, I'm barely here at all


You think it's a funny thing
You think it's sex all day
God damn you, god damn you
It's got hold of me, or at least a key
It don't bother me, it don't bother me

See it's good to be out and alone in the world
Cause nobody cares, and they never did anyways


14. - Boiled Over

I'll be honest I don't have any clue what Ratecliff is singing about here.  I just know he seems a bit happy and sad at the same time.  Like he's stoned and wanted to celebrate ending the album but knew that it wasn't probably going to be thought of like his last one that was full of a bit more pep.


Tuesday, March 20, 2018

A story of peas

Gerald looked blankly at his peas.  The color so benignly green that he couldn't exactly call them anything but average.  And honestly as peas went, those were the worst kind.  Not good enough that you could talk exuberantly about them, not bad enough that you could complain.  They just sat there, lightly salted, and completely unimportant.

Gerald was on a dinner date with a woman he met using a smart phone app, who at first seemed pleasant, educated and of reasonable health, but talked about what everyone else seemed to be talking about.  The sports teams, the politicians, the weather, and whatever television show was popular at the time. 

They had agreed on an French restaurant whose red curtains, decorated chandeliers and lanterns made it feel as though a customer were being transported to theme's of a world long past.  As though they were out of place in time.

There sure as shit wasn't going to be a discussion about pea's and Gerald found the thought dissappointing.

"So what do you do, exactly?" 

"I tell people what they want to hear"

"If that were true, then you would have replied 'Doctor'" She said with a grin

Gerald moved the pea's around.

"You don't want me to say Doctor"

"Oh really?"

"No, you'd be intimidated if I had said I was a Doctor.  You think you want to meet a doctor, but when push comes to shove meeting those people would cause stress.  You'd become tense, and potentially drink and eat at a much faster pace than you'd initially do if you weren't. 

"Well I hardly think that I wanted to hear all of that."

"Of course.  There are limits.  Don't worry about it.  Did you try the peas?"

The woman took a bite with a look that looked of confusion and contentment.  He was after all right.  She had never felt comfortable with those she perceived as beyond her own social status.  She always felt like she wanted to belong, but never could.


"Hey, Did you see the championship match at all?"

She had and it made her feel surprisingly at ease.  It was a simple party she had been to.  She talked about the food she ate, the drinks, the games, the one joke that was told that had the party laughing as though nothing that funny had happened in years. 

Gerald rolled the peas around.

"Let me ask you something dear, do you know why we like to talk about these memories?  These thing's?  It's because we think we KNOW what's happened to ourselves.  We understand at the very least our own reality.  And that reality, we want to think is unique.  That it's exciting to be who we are, or at the very least it's enjoyable."

"Are you saying that it isn't?"

"What did you think of your peas?"

She stared blankly at him.

Gerald sighed, and ate his peas.



Wednesday, March 7, 2018

Start and Stop - A Battle With Writer's Block.

How does the brain open and shut like that?  In one moment you sit melancholy or depressed, the next the synapses fire, and all of a sudden, you feel alive.  You come from a clouded space, one full of noise and angst only to later be filled so fully in the spirit of creation.  You don't care about the typos, you don't care if it all makes sense, but you type as fast as you can to make something new.

The formatting might be wrong.  There might be a wrong version of "too or to," but in the end, you erase the feeling of being incapable.  If even for five minutes in a day, you feel you can create anything that your mind wants.  Cheeseburgers in outer space?  A kitten with the ability to speak?  The possibilities are only limited by your own imagination.

But sometimes when I begin to write, or after writing for a while, the synapses seem to close; they seem to dull, and all of a sudden, I'm writing slower than when I started, and I want to go back, re-write it all and delete everything. 

That feeling makes me feel sick.

So I try to push on, writing about whatever it is I thought I first had an inspiration for, trying to push something out that I feel will validate me.  Something that'll showcase my talent for writing as well as hopefully something that's worth reading.

Often times the things that I've written are simply saved as drafts in this very blog.  Unfinished started and stopped works that I had an initial inspiration for but one reason or another stopped before completion.

So what it seems I might be at war with now, is my own apathy.  My own ability to have a streaming consciousness put onto the page and have it make sense.

And what if it doesn't?


Or if it's not funny, or not dramatic enough? 

I have to take solace that at least I had the courage to put my thoughts to paper, to attempt to try and create a sense of permanence to the idea of creation.  And even if the stories are muddled with mistakes, of which I'm sure I make plenty of, I still fought for a life that is defined by the actions I wanted to take and create. 

The other part is to keep writing as often as possible.  To keep to the routine and not move so arbitrarily; writing something one day and nothing the next. 

I'm not paid to write, I do it as a hobby and to keep that hope alive that one day maybe I could work for a living with maybe a magazine or some other media outlet.

Of course for that to work, you need to be worth reading and produce copious amount of material.  Something that I'm currently lacking.

Still, I feel the need to keep plugging away, in a sense, because I like it. 

Even now, as I think of this particular piece as a somewhat cliche "'Struggling to write,' writes writer," it makes me feel alive in a way that not writing makes me feel lost.  It's kind of like how when an athlete stops exercising.  You begin to feel a little bit down, until you pick yourself back up and do it again.

Maybe that's what this is.  That feeling of getting back into the swing of things, and becoming the person I always intended to be.



Tuesday, February 27, 2018

New Troy


Short little writing exercise.  Using a writing prompt from Reddit with the assignment being to write as if for a Roman Newspaper in a parallel universe in which Rome never fell and Gladiators still exist.


New Troy, West Major Italy
Feb 26th, 2018

The pain split him like a thunderbolt through an old oak, but Jan Vergison clinched the Gladius Crown once again, defeating Re'Bul Athinias by Certain Death.

Vergison, a 17 year veteran used his standard "Tri-Claw" to best Athinias' who controversially wielded his personal dual bladed Bo Staff that he calls "Molevelance instead of the state of the art battle ax "Adidioso Xoom"introduced this year by Adidias.

The match started off quickly with Vergison lunging into the middle of the arena to score a quick jab into the right abdomen of Athinias.  The jab nearly ended the match then and there as the "HumaScan" replay showed that Athinias nearly had his small intestine severed and ripped but the cut missed by just 8 millimeters.

"I just knew I had to get inside fast.  I work everyday on my quickness, because in the end that's what my opponents aren't ready for.  They know that I have the strength, the will and the tenacity, but I've always felt my speed is my real advantage."

Still even after being cut first, Athinias managed to come up with a brilliant counter offensive.  Swinging, at times, wildly, but none the less effectively, Athinias backed up the veteran into the North East quadrant, where the gravity effects would help slow his opponent down.

At post match, the LifeAfterDeath A.I. revealed Athinias was confident about his ability to keep space via his weapon choice.  "The best chance for me, I felt, was to keep distance and I had to back him up after his initial strike."

Still, Vergison, who had been placed into the Gladius Rights program at age 12 after pulling a toy gun on another student and was born with a level 24 mental rating, showed again his renowned tolerance for pain as well as a near suicidal level of risk tolerance. 

Despite being speared in his right clavicle, Vergison made a final charge and with a right uppercut split Athinias skull in two, plunging in the soft opening below his helmet and moving in an upward motion ending in victory.  The match lasted six minute

For winning, Vergison will be awarded 100 million dollars, and be allowed to live at least five more years should he retire.  His current wish, to once again live freely among the general public, will again not be granted.

While the inside of the match was one to behold for the sport, the Gladius Crown was again protested by a vocal group saying that it is time for a change, and that the sentencing of criminals to sport for the public's interest has led to slavery of the poor.

In total, the viewership was again down, as only 35% watched the blood sport.


Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Gun Laws Are A Start. Integration and Education Matter Too.

It's not just gun laws, but gun culture that needs to change. We need to begin to look at guns and violence in general as a lesser option in this country. Wars and violence in the world are not to be celebrated.  It is to be discouraged as a primary objective of humanity.

The freedom that we have right now to bear arms is a large one; it is the most dangerous one.  We regulate everything else, we regulate our medicine, we regulate the drugs, we regulate cars , we regulate taxes and all sorts of things. But the deadliest things? The things that can cause harm to one another?   The ease of procurement of lethal weaponry in the US is second to none.  Both legally and illegally.

Young people and people that are emotionally or mentally disturbed OR MAY BECOME emotionally or mentally disturbed have it very easy to obtain a weapon in this country and that presents a problem in this day and age when those weapons can decimate a large number of people in an extremely short period of time.

I believe that people have a right to defend themselves with a personal defense weapon.

I believe that that weapon should be capable of completely incapacitating an aggressor.

I believe in the right to hunt with certain restrictions.  You can't change the entire ecosystem by decimating a population of elephants, for example.

I believe that skill shooting is a valid competition.

However I believe that gun ownership is a huge responsibility and as such, checks must be made to ensure the safety of others in this regulation.  Guns are weapons.  Let's not pretend that their function isn't primarily to shoot and destroy things. 

I think that a yearly check to ensure the person doesn't have any prior drug or alcohol related offenses for the past year.  That they don't have any violent offenses.  Not just to purchase a weapon, but to maintain ownership, especially if when referring to military grade weaponry. 

I believe that people can act responsibly one day and irresponsibly the next, so I don't think a one time purchase should lead to a lifetime of ownership for assault rifles and semi automatic weaponry.  It would be great if mankind constantly acted rationally at all times, but we know this is not the case.

I don't have the right right now to medicate however I please. There are certain drugs I can take and there's certain drugs that I cannot take.  The government attempts to regulate personal health with greater scrutiny than it regulates potential death to its own citizenry via the hostile actions of others. 

In some things I agree, that opioids in particular need to be an extremely scrutinized category drug due it's nature of addiction as well as acute overdose dangers. 

Marijuana on the other hand I find less destructive than alcohol, and shouldn't be regulated by the government.

I think it is time to regulate with far greater scrutiny weapons with large magazines and weapons that can discharge at a disproportionate rate.  We need to regulate them at least as well as we regulate cars, or medicine.

But the gun laws are really only part of the problem the real problem in the core of it starts with who we are as like a people and how much do we love each other and try to support one another versus how much are we looking out for ourselves and our own selfish interest and greed.
 
I believe that the school shootings in particular could be prevented by additional help and funding in the classroom and in school and escalating problems and how we interact with one another how we interact and deal with bullying in our lives at an early age, talking to one another and communicating to one another is one of the most important things that you can learn.  I think it helps prevent anger and hostility towards one another when we treat each other in it. Don't bully tease and put people in isolation that don't need to be there.

For some people its hard or difficult to interact with the outside world and they have fears or anxieties or their stress or any multitude of things but it's important as a society to try to reach out and love those that maybe other people have had difficulty reaching out to for whatever reason.

I really believe that America as I see it today is at a bit of a crossroads to who we want to be. Do we want to be a country that is angry all the time that embraces this winning or nothing mentality and will do anything to get ahead?  Or do we bond together and try to talk about things that affect everybody even though you may not be able to see it or feel it at times.  To take action on helping other people with social programs that uplift the country as a whole, rather than invest in a weapons and military industry that in my view isn't built for the problems and securities of today.

Gun activists and proponents of guns and their freedom with them like to point out that if the person was dedicated enough he could still get his hands on multitudes of weapons or bombs or poison or what have you to have a great effect on their target whatever their target is which is true.

However we still don't see though any of those sorts of activities happening in other countries.  For example we don't see the disaffected youth of France you know bombing their schools we don't see the disaffected youth of Germany, Russia, Australia, Franz, the UK, Mexico, Canada, for anywhere else in the world destroying their own.

I am sure there have been isolated incidents all across the world, but they are exceedingly rare in comparison to what is going on in the United States right now.

So I think to myself. What is the reason that are youth and our populace is so upset and why are we so angry and why are we so scared?

One of the things I think is a problem is that we are constantly pumped fear by our politicians and news media about different things, namely crime. We always have a fear of a burglar, a rapist, a murderer, a terrorist or an off kilter nut-job.

The second thing that I think is that our schools are woefully inadequate and how they are performing and how they are funded, the kids aren't getting nearly enough resources and things such as bullying and social isolation need to be addressed.

If we want better kids and we want better parents and we want everything to be better, we need to begin to at the very start and investing in our future we need to invest our collective ability to learn and adapt and that comes primarily through education.
We need to invest to get a people, opportunities and jobs. Technical and trade schools.  Community Colleges.  Anything really to kind of help get people working and being productive would be great. 

In the end, while restricting access to military grade weaponry will help, it will  by embracing a culture that loves one another rather than fears and hates one another.  Build through education and social programs that uplift.  Care for one another rather than only looking to help ones self.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

A Valentine.

To explain my love to you is to try to attempt to explain the movement of time.  Because that's how I feel when I look at you.  That I see the same girl I came to see in Wellsboro who greeted me with a big smile and warm hug.  The same girl I would disappoint by failing properly cook a pinterest dessert. 

Every time I see your eyes I see that first year.

But I also see all the other years and events.

When you first moved down for a Summer while working at the Shoe Dept. for a summer. 

Moving into Toftree's and then you moving to State College.

Trips to Orlando, Arizona, and San Diego.

Our trips to Philadelphia and Pittsburgh to see friends.

The beach and motel in Wildwood where we've nearly every Summer.

It seems to hit me all at once sometimes.

Perhaps that's best way to describe love.  Something that makes you feel so good that the laws of time stop.  That you can draw on an experience from the past and experience it all over again just by a look, a laugh, a smile.

While the origins of Valentine's day may be arbitrarily concocted, my love for you is real, and I hope that you know that always.

Love Ben